birthday.

uhm. so. today is my birthday and well,of course you are not going to say hi or happy birthday,or i miss you or nothing at all. i really wish you did that. i don't expect it. 

yesterday i watched dear john and i remembered everything we've been through and i watched 500 days of summer and i watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind and...god i miss you. i like really miss you and you do not even care. we were chatting. we were friends. 

i do not know who cares about you now. about your fears. about your doubts. about everything you have ever been afraid of, and who cares about your cat or how are you doing with drums or tennis or how many points does Rafa lose between every match and god. and. i hate the feeling that you are with someone that doesn't care not even half i do care about you. well. 

it feels awkward and sad,making me feel i wasted all this years. i promise i will never forget the look in your eyes when i said 'see you next week' and you said that you'd be waiting for me. even though you weren't. 

  

you cannot imagine how much i miss our talks and our conversations, all those things that meant so much to us once and now seems that neither one of us care anymore. but i think that is what growing up is about,so. 

i will use my wishes to expect you to be happy and complete and wishing that somebody makes to you what i couldn't do : catch you.